Why?

What is wrong with you?
Only a mere concern, regrets.

I have no means of arguing with you, why in the world would you think im retaliating against you?
You live in your long past life, with all those old and ridiculous teachings. You did not even do anything that is of any use to guide me through my life, maybe when i was young, but never now. You give superficial stuffs, only money, you think is the mightiest that anyone deserve.
Total disappointment.

What have you even done to think you deserve any respect from anyone? You, in the first place, did not show any respect. Comparing yourself against me, don't you feel ashamed? You are a senior citizen already, for god sake, other than saying me, what do you have to say for yourself? You always carry this thought that the young MUST always respect the elders, yes i agree, but HEY, people taught me that you have to earn the respect by respecting others first.

Its been so many years, you have not changed a single bit, in fact it got worst. Everyone have to give in your way, you are never wrong, you are the mightiest, that's what I believe you think you are. Have you ever, ever reflect on your own character?

People say like father, like son.
No, I never ever would want to be like you, and I'm scared, so scared i would transform into something so horrible like you, arrogant and selfish. I've always tried not to trigger your temper, you never care, you never care how all the others think about you, you live in your own selfish world.

Even now I'm typing here, you are raging behind me, with all those foul languages, scolding like no one's business, saying stuffs without thinking. So long as you win the argument, you don't care the feelings of others, not refine at all, really.

Why is it the case that i always envy friends around me?
I always feel they have a much fortunate family than i do, why?
Looking at a son running along a random street towards his dad, holding his hand, I always feel an ache in my heart. Why is it only you that makes everything impossible, cant you just be normal?
Honestly, I would prefer spending time at my friends place to mine, but its rude to do that all the time, i know, this is the reason i chose to go home extremely late whenever I'm out.
You are the cause for what i am now.

I will live my own life, its never anyone's business to care what i do or what i yearn for. Trust me, there's a limit to everyone patience, if there's any chance right now, I would leave, you don't have to say it, its my pleasure.

You are not worth my concern anymore, it never came out good, With you around, you make me don't feel like living anymore. No moral support from you since young, I give up.

A boring life.

Wat in the world actually means living in this world?

wat am i suppose to do?

im lost.

nooooooooooooo.

must find a way out.

cant be lost!

why must there be tough decisions in life.

cant i just sit back and watch things pass.?

why is life full of choices/decisions.

one wrong move: and thats it.

should i just give in?

or just keep on moving my usual life?

so confuse now.

someone please help me !

please keep me away.

just go.

its just too late to say all this.

fck always comes to assignment/test period... always feel left out... zzz my problem? ==
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dunnoe why....
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wan sleep=.=
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or probably go --495--...

TT

cannot fully depend on friends....
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only when comes to playing then...
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other than that.?

nothing.


ok maybe me not good..

:(

soz...

still nid chiong assignment now...
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not sleeping tonight le.
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so.



bye.
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ignore me if you dun agree wif me.

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jus being...

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nothing.

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Nov 21, 2009

nothing to do again...

A.S.K. .... wats life?... something like mine? everyday nothing to do... tho got hw... yet still slacking around.... dun feel like doing anything...

haha~ got to know something interesting~ but im not gonna say~ :X

very bored...

ppl i know are mostly offline now... especially someone TT sadded... *more bored.*

wan to think of wat to do during holiday now xD ... siala... so many assignments... still thinking of playing... haiz... *thats me~*

term coming to an end... so assignments are piling up now... nid chiong hw soon... so a period of time wont be blogging~ *more sianz!*

now thinking of wat to do... still dunnoe wat to do... so im continue-ing to type in this post... *typing wateva i have in my mind now.* fingers not stoping... typing as slowly as possible.... so my brain could generate something for me to write xD if not going to feel bored again =="

aiz... brain could not generate anything else lerh... *blank* so... thats all for today... hehe~

hope you like my blog..~ any comments pls tag me~ thz! ~ xD BaibYEs!~

hi there~

im blogging now cuz nothing to do... haiz... (very tired*)

Went to catch a movie yesterday(2012) That movie was FANTASTIC... serious... best CG effects i've seen so far. xD ok maybe theres other better ones... but i like 2012.. its cool~ xD recommended to people who are intending to catch a movie~

why watch movie? as a form of birthday celebration for one of my friend... had fun etc.

now currently listening to 周笔畅-这句话--- nice song~

today damn suay! laptop power kena turned off 2 times! (without battery!) shyt la.! zzz! comp going to spoil if this continues *THX TO SOMEONE!*

very sian today... lesson end at 11... go home do nothing.. planned to sleep... end up staying awake dunnoe dowat ... =="

feel like watching AVATAR on December 18! whos with me!? aiz... maybe go watch alone~

haiz... dun feel like ending this post... *cuz finishing this post = nothing to do again lerh =="

ok nvm... i think i go sleep le... sianz... so early nia... !! but cannot drag le ... EYES very blur le ... must go sleep le! -.-zzZ

T.H.E. D.A.Y. E.N.D.E.D. O.F.F. F.E.E.L.I.N.G. S.L.E.E.P.Y.

lols hi there~ im blogging now for the purpose of blogging :/ i dunnoe wat to write! aargh!

OOPM very hard to memorize all the codes...zzz every lesson cannot catch up then no mood to listen to the teacher lerh! aaa~ scared fail this module then die! cannot proceed to IA next year lerh TT.

This month 13-19 got 4 friends b'day~ 2 on 13/11, 1 on 14/11 and last on 19/11~ great== going bankrupt due to buying b'day present... zzZZ what the hell... must save for the rest of the month lerh... spent too much in November! soz.

Life without $$$ = Life without life...

now attending OOPM class... and im here blogging! shucks! later lost again.. zzz. Must find one day then chiong all the enquiries i have with my friends... cannot afford to fail this module!

OOPM = my future!
NO OOPM = No Future!

ZZZ... now back with my cafe world xD haha~ /*still not paying attetion no matter what*/
haha! dun care le larh! everytime teacher ask students go up demonstrate - DAMN STRESS...

OK! im gonna listen le! serious! now paying attention! **** ok no more blogging! no more facebook-ing! no Cafe World! no dream-ing! no noth-ing! but LISTEN!

bbyes!~

sighs... sorry for not updating for a period of time...

A.S.K... wats friend... sumone who cares for you or sumone whom you rely on when you are in sum "situation"? i realli dun get it... today damn sad.... totalli like tio ignored by my friends... Do they realli care? Nvm.. i guess they dont... i was like seating all A.L.O.N.E in class today... and they were discussing things away from me... (left out)... T n T.

Are friends true? or jus sumone you can tok to when you are out of your house?

today was realli sad... realli realli sad... i dun think i even speak more then 10 sentences today...

always wanted sumone who realli treat me as real friends... nvr leave me out; always crazy together... but no chance...

E.V.E.N when i left sch no one said anything to me... no one... i realli dun like the feeling when friend"S" totally ignores me... or dun tok to me... everytime i think of this... sumthing cross my mind(and im not going to say it)...

Issit true that friends realli have fun together and share the laughters? True when we laugh together and had fun... but when comes to being sad and alone... no one cares or bothers...

Are they realli "true" friends? or jus having fun wif me when they feel like and dump me away when they dun even care...

They realli give me a feeling that... although we hangout together... but we may not be....

F.R.I.E.N.D.S seriously doubting wat they realli are... cant seem to understand why....

maybe im being petty and childish.... i dunnoe... realli dunnoe... tell me wat i should do...

T.H.E - D.A.Y - E.N.D.E.D - O.F.F - T.H.E - W.A.Y - I - A.L.W.A.Y.S - N.E.V.E.R - W.A.N.T.E.D